Perspective

I'm not sure if it was the conversation or just knowing that I wasn't alone that helped, but this morning I woke up with an incredible sense of peace.

It could have also been the 3 shots and 1 typhoid fever pill I took that did it. Who knows really. I am, however, immune now to Yellow Fever, Hepatitis A and B, Tetanus, Typhoid Fever, and soon Malaria.

It's amazing how something so small can give you such perspective. I had to get up today and tell people about all the children Food for the Hungry helped sponsor this past year. Picture after picture flashed up on the screen. My life is so blessed I thought. My life is so rich with friendships and opportunities I reminded myself. Perspective.

"The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you. he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing." Zephaniah 3:17.

Walking

This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I feel incapable. I feel as if something is wrong with my general self. I want to cry, but it won't come. I even sat in the shower to see if it would help. It didn't. Things I don't want to admit.

I hear His whisper. You're not capable; but I am. Trust. It hurts I say. I know. Trust. But I don't know if I can I say. You can; you have to. It feels like an eternity I say. My timing is perfect. I know it in my head I say, but my heart isn't listening. Seek and you shall find, ask and it shall be given. What do I ask for I plead. Peace, patience, kindness and joy. This is hard I say. Behold I make all things new. Even me I ask. Yes, even you. But it still hurts I say. I am the vine, you are the branches. What if I fail. I am the great I am. Trust. But I'm lonely I say. My yoke is easy and my burden is light. Trust...things I don't want to admit.